Sunday Poems VI

This week I’ve been taking up space in various coffee shops on various coffee shops’ wifi connections to make up for a temporary lapse in internet service at home. The first real snow fall of the year — that I’ve noticed — is happening as I’m writing this and it’s a good reminder that we never do escape winter. We never escape anything that operates in a cycle, and most things operate in a cycle.

Sundays are a good time to sit down and think. I say this not because they hold and particular significance to me, but as a big proponent of sitting down and thinking I think any day is a good time to sit down and think. So why not start now? If you need something to think about, I’ve got a poem for you below. It’s definitely warm drink season. Hot chocolate is in the cards for me as I get home. I resumed drinking coffee earlier this week after a eight months away from our favourite drug. This week’s reflections are somewhat prompted by that.

I’d like to try to make myself more available for people to chat with, so if you’ve been reading what I’ve been writing these last two months, I’d love to hear what you think. If you feel like debating over what I’ve written, or need someone to chat with, consider leaving a comment or e-mailing me at theodore@theodorefox.com


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“People with ADD are always reacting. Even when they look calm and sedate, they are usually churning inside, taking this piece of data and moving it there, pushing this thought through their emotional network, putting that idea on the fire to burn, exploding or subsiding, but always in motion. Such hyperractivity enhances creativity because it increases the number of collisions in the brain. Each collision has the potential to emit new light, new matter, as when subatomic particles collide.”
-Edward M. Hallowell with John Ratey, Driven to Distraction

in ‘the dis
organized mind:
coaching your
ADHD brain
to take control
of your life’,

nancy a. ratey
(who is married
to john ratey —
coauthor w/
edward m.
hallowell of

driven to
distraction:
recognizing
and coping
with attention
deficit disorder

from childhood
through adulthood —
a household
all about ADD) —
i just got up
to get a coffee,

(as a stimulant
caffeine is used
by some people
with ADD, though
dosage is harder
to control and

coffee leads
to jittery feelings,
though several
people in my family
drink a cup of tea
before bed and it

helps them sleep;
thinking of when
at 21 i started
consuming
a litre of diet coke
a day after a life

of never consuming
soda and it opened
up my brain, caffeine
administered in a form
i drank like water
with silky aspartame

on my tongue
reminding me of
skating outside
as a small person —
memory removes
the linearity of time —

this was after
being on various
stimulants for eight
months switching
when the side effects
got to be too much

and eventually
i was sleeping only
every few days
and rarely eating
and i stopped cold
turkey and slept

for a while and felt
better for a while) —
discusses finding
someone in your life
who can act as an
ADD coach

(I’ve been trying to
think of who this
person would be
for years now,
she recommends
maybe not a parent

but an uncle or a
trusted teacher)
and i’ve picked
this book up again
to figure out
what to tell

the person who has
volunteered to help
get me organize
better than i could
administrating over
myself: waking up

at six in the morning
to write poems
when i was 20,
hiding in a basement
writing for at least
four hours per morning

(in catching the big fish,
a book on creativity
by david lynch, one finds
the following expression
of bushnell keeler:
“if you want to get one

hour of good painting in, you
have to have four hours of
uninterrupted time.”),
repeating my mantra of
“i’m working”, while staring
at a white wall and ignoring

a buzzing phone
(in thom hartwell’s
ADD: a different
perception he divides
the world into folks
who make good

hunters and folks
who make good farmers,
the difference between
the two being “the state
of consciousness to
which the person

automatically reverts,
when he or she is not
trying to maintain
one state or the other.
farmers naturally relax
into the focused state;

hunters relax
into the open state.”)
waiting for something
to happen, and thinking
about what environment
enclosed edward m.

hallowell when he
wrote “what is
creativity but impulsivity
gone right?”


This post was originally written on November 8, 2015 for Latitude 53, while I was their Writer in Residence.